MY SPECIAL FRIENDSHIP.

Shhh, it's a secret ..we all have different secrets. Well, one of my secret is : I have a special secret friendship. It's not a normal friendship, I know ..but who cares? This make me headache seriously but it's make me comfortable. "YOU" make me confused sometimes but can treat me right. Sometimes I damn care what's YOU say but need to pretend that "who cares?" in front of. YOU can maybe a girl or a guy too ..or can maybe a soul, my soul that live inside me? Sometimes I will think about ..why you? Maybe it because you saw me when I'm invisible? Or maybe I'm not very good at making friends? Or maybe you were just the way you are? Or maybe I just catching the feelings of you? ..We are the best best friends that look alike couple, I still have a bit nervous when I have a date with you, I still care who you always dealing with.. YOU can properly make my day even just some sweet words on it, seriously I'm not really trust you in your every words sometimes but then I did really trust it every time in those moment. YOU look alike me sometimes, those feelings, those thought, those needed, those expectation, those unspoken words.

SORRY. Sorry for disturbing, sorry for my annoying, sorry for thinking too much, sorry for keep endured me, sorry for keep worrying me, sorry for letting you down, sorry for let everything happen with an reason, sorry for who I am.

THANK YOU. Thank you for making my day, Thank you for worrying me, Thank you for respecting me, Thanks you for  trusting me, Thank you for giving me chances, Thank you for listening my boring stories, Thank you for making your special secret friend, Thank you for making something happen, Thank you for calling me when I'm not in the mood, Thank you for being a good guy in front of me, Thank you for making me comfortable, Thank you for making me believe, Thank you for making me who I am.

· Cause everything starts from something, but something would be nothing. Nothing if your heart didn't dream with me.

Where would I be, if you didn't believe ?

Cute things EVER.

Two weeks of school holidays almost end now :) When I realized all those homework and all those folio that I haven even touch it, I know I'm dead now..seriously I'm dying.. I think it's time to LAST MINUTES again. God bless! @@ Another thing is.. in this two weeks of school holidays I thought it might be so enjoyable and simple but then it can happened a lot of serious stupid stuff on me. Really. Went to a random party, met a guy, both of us love at first sight, having chat, morning call, hang out and became a 'secret twitter's friends'(?) haa~ (absurd). Always hurt by a guy, I already used to it. Maybe that's how I live with.. I tried to change it but can I? My love always easy come and easy go, sucks. Can I change to easy come but hard to go? Truly in love with each other but can't to-be-gether?! (cruel). Remember my sweetheart, love is need to GRASP by your own self, it can't be control by someone else and something else. Chances is hard to get back, when the fate is already came, don't lose it and don't just let it be, you need some action to prove it if you really want it and need it and love it! Don't just like that, you need to learnt more about it. If you truly love someone, you will get it no matter how the situation is, you will try to get it till the end. If you want to love, just go ahead. NOBODY can force that you can't! REALLY! I just telling the truth my sweetheart. My heart is damn pain when I'm watching you to be like you don't want to be. DO whatever you want to do. Don't control by someone else. Follow your dreams baby :) JUST TRUST YOURSELF! Trust yourself is more helpful and useful by trust something else. I didn't contempt something or what, I really just want you to know about it. Make the decision by your own self not by others. Ask yourself properly, ask what you really want and what you really want to do! Not the instructions by someone but is YOU! Think wisely and make the decision carefully. Look clearly to this cruel world, try to understand it. It can't be help by anything but you, just you! The thought of yours is the most important things EVER! Don't always tell me that this cannot that don't let. You are the one who only can control your own self in this god damn world not the others. Hope you know it, I didn't treat a guy like this before but you. All because I want you back, the only one that who I really give so many chances to, just you. But you don't care about all those rare chances. Please .. I beg you now, THINK  THINK THINK !! Don't just let me go like this, I don't want to end like this. It's not over yet !! ♛ ...

MY 16th LOVE STORY.

My real love story?  I created it.
Don't think too much, it's simple :)
And baby this is where our story start ♥

2 JUNE 2011

I still remember that night. It's me and my ex 5th months :) At the same time, me and Natasha were overnight at Bailey's house on that day. I'm the last one who going to bed and ready to off my lappie but then I received a message it's from him, my ex at 12am. I remember that I cried so hard so tired and I felt my heart broke.. It's my first time cried for him and it's mine last time too. But seriously, I really felt damn unfair and resentment him, after that my hatred is going great then before that I had. Yeah, I hated him before started our 2th months. Weired right? But sorry, honesty. Make sure who is the fucker I need to blame :)

4 SEPTEMBER 2011

"Hey, I'm Calvin. Nice to meet you *handshake*. Well don't mind me if I say this but you look amazing in your photos :)" ... and my new life is begun like this different way. His my best friend Natasha's childhood that study at Elc International School and stay at Bukit Rahman Putra , Sungai Buloh.. It because of that his chinese pronunciation is kinda weird in our first phone call and kinda cute too. First impression? He's mind is kinda simple, merely so he's kinda very easily deceived too. This show that he's not very good at lying? He not really know how to express his feelings? Not really likely to talking back? Loyal to his loved one? Love to blame himself sometimes? still ... he is the one who make me believe in love again after all the heartbroken. He is the one who make me feel love again after all the hurting. He is the one who awaken me from the nightmare. He is the only one who make me feel so comfortable with. He is the one who make my world so colourful and wonderful :)

8 SEPTEMBER 2011

I don't know. I just know how to smile every single day after I thinking of him. I don't know. He make me feel so right. And I knew that I was falling in love in him. Finally I fall in love in him and forgotten another fucker. Always have a brilliant smile in my face even I was having the class. Maybe others will think that I'm so weird but I just can't control myself to stopped thinking of him. He will always cross my mind while I'm tried to focused a things.He make me feel so special and of cause he's my special too! The most special person in the world! ..can you make my smile brilliant like this photo forever? :)

13 SEPTEMBER 2011

Alice How is in the relationship with Calvin Tan.

I keep smiling every day, every second, started on this day on this month on this year. I keep sharing my happy memories to my dearest friends and my friends glad that my laughter is came back too. I damn expect his phone call every single night. But then I scared one day I will falling apart again if I give my all heart and real feeling to him, after all I'm just 16 now right? ...I'm wrong, I knew that he wasn't that kind of guy :) I trusted him so much! I knew he won't betray me anyway ..He make me feel right, he is the one for me :)

15 OCTOBER 2011

I still remember this stupid day. How stupid he was. He went to wrong place to meet me and I just can speechless to him. He went to the place where we needed to date on another week but not on that day. All my friends said he was a dumb dumb after all knew it and my respond is just a speechless to him. Yeah it was so pity but then I thought he's so cute btw. I know I'm such a fool anyway haha but for me, it's a funny memories that we had. It's our memories :)

25 OCTOBER 2011

A lot of people asked me: "Why you wear so simple when you went out to meet your boyfriend?" One simple t-shirt, short pant, slipper ..why? Simple. It because he already know my everything and why I still need to make-up so damn much when I'm in front of him and it's just a simple date between me and him. He know my silence and he's already my world. It doesn't need to pretend anything in your 'world' right? I feel so comfortable while I'm with him. I am who I am, no need to pretend anything, really. Make-up in front of him? When it is in needed.

27 OCTOBER 2011

Paranormal Activity movie's day. Everybody know that I scared of ghost's stuff but then this guy is much more. This day meant to me a lot. He's childish than anyone. He's playful than anyone. He's talkative than anyone. He's friendly than anyone. But SOMETIMES he's damn silence than anyone. He feel lonely than anyone. He's fierce than anyone. But he can treat you well than anyone. He can be the best-est friend ever to everyone :) 

29 OCTOBER 2011

Happy Halloween :)

Still haven understand much each other but I know I really love him. He sweating the whole day. Play, run, dance.. so damn sweaty. But you know what? I love watching him fooling around, look so stupid haha. I really don't know need to write what now... I just know that I love him so much without any reason :)

11 DECEMBER 2011

MUSTACHE! ♥

A sleepless night. I still remember that he midnight phone called me and he was drunk. He's so crazy when he was drunk. Damn, I laughed and laughed and laughed when he speak to me through the phone. But then after he serious with me, I cried and cried and cried. Don't know why, maybe he touched my heart? :) He's so awesome for me. And after that, I knew that I needed him!

24 DECEMBER 2011

Merry Christmas!

My Christmas celebrated at Desa Park City :) I love my Christmas so much this year. Don;t know why, I feel so happy and comforted when I'm be with him. I feel so free and comfortable too. He know my silence and he know the damn reason. To be honest, I'm not interest in seeing my boyfriend's message but then I TER-NAMPAK it. I didn't ask anything and what to him. I just being silence and pretend that I'm fine and nothing in front of him. But then he knew that I'm act so different and so stiff that day. But after that he automatically told me all the truth and cleared all my insecure away. And I know that he is better than anyone :)

29 JANUARY 2012

The best-est and the last-est memory EVER and it was the last second day before he leave. He gave me a lot a lot a lot of happy memories to me. And I'm glad to :) I won't regret anything and everything. He trusted me and I trusted him so much too. After that day, I knew that we both is meant to be. Nothing will defeat us. I love you ♥

30 JANUARY 2012

Our last hug. Our last kiss. Our one last touch. I pretend so much on that day it because I need to control my feelings and my tears in front of him, and my brain told me that I CAN'T CRY NOW! When he told his friends that he need some time to tell me something and my tears is unconsciously came out. My heart is so disobedient and grieved. I tried to control it and I really do it. And then the god damn serious moment was started. After I went into my friend's car and after she drove away, my tears don't care anything and dropped like a fool. I cry silently. I can't see anything clearly and think clearly. I just know CRY this word. I feel so sad, so god damn unhappy ..

25 APRIL 2012
We broke up. You said sorry to me and comforted me don't cry but I pretend that I'm fine and I tried to smile and told you that I really never mind. It because I knew it will happen and it's really happened. I'm fine and I trusted you. My friends said you fall in love with other girls, but I trusted you and I knew that you won't cheated on me and betray me.. right? So.. I'm SINGLE now :)
I really hate his bullshit reason but I accepted his everything no matter what.

♥

AND NOW, I felt very desperate to boys. I won't in the relationship with any guys anymore for now. Please give me some times, my heart need some times to recover up itself. I wanna to ambiguous with a guys now. I tried to be a playgirl sometimes, but I really can't. Maybe I'm not the professional about it. I'm the one who easily to fall in love with someone and the one who easily to falling apart with something too. My lovely friends out there, please forgive me when I'm become a playgirl. I'm very sorry, but my heart really so tired of love. I give too much and I love too much and I forget who am I now. I'm confusing about everything now.
I really don't know which way I need to go now. I don't know my heart. I don't even know myself  now.. I can't make any decision!! Fuck myself.

And I falling in love with the same person at the same time again.

I scared of everything. I can't even face it.

I'm such a BITCH! I'm so FUCK UP!

FUCK YOU ALICE!!! ..

Once again,

IMMA SINGLE BITCH NOW.

ACT nothing.

You know what? I just can smile when my friends are around and YOU are here for me :) When I'm alone I just so emotional and so confused.. Sometimes I will think that I'm so useless and why I came to this world. I know it's so non-sense but yeah, it's so ridiculous == I'm so sorry to you too, not about what just sorry that I always can't find time for you, maybe the time are not really right for we both sometimes, hard to accommodate it /.\ You slept I'm awaken, you busy I'm free, there night here afternoon == and the freaky phone line are so god damn bad :( can't hear clearly and nicely .. and I don't wanna you to stay in the phone so long with me it because I know it's very expensive, so I just pretend that I don't care that :) seriously I really want to talk with you but i know it's hard. Hope can skype soon :( .. I JUST PRETEND TO BE HAPPY :)

I always smile like a dumbass when you're around me and when you come and find me :) You can make my day even I just stare at you and smile :) I really miss those moment.. I know you will be come back soon right? haha :) I really can't wait that moment when you secretly appear in front of me lol :P I swear I will cry like hell! xD TEEHEE. Hmm Calvin my love, can you stop saying that I will be fall in love with someone else? Trust me I won't and never ever will.. My heart is already belong to you and I just wait you to throw it back to me when I'm useless to you :) lol hahahah I know you won't right? xD I know we both are meant to be :)

I miss you, I miss your stupid face and I miss those moment, I miss everything about you.. I really miss those hug and kisses.. APRIL SOON PLEASE..! :( I really jealous your room mate that can always see you and talk with you and can same room WITH YOU! But luckily he is a boy :P TEEHEE. ... I know sometimes words aren't enough to make someone feel that you care for them, it needs a little actions to convince them that you really care. But all this thing I do and word I say is really meant to me, not just you.. I really care about you all the time. My tears still came out while I reading our old text and somethings that really mean to me :) .. and yeah I will try my best in SPM and hardworking from now on :) but seriously.. 9A's is a bit hard for me ==..

I always secretly hug you all the time but you just didn't realize it :) in every single night I will exactly do the same.. please don't leave me, I said I feel you in my bones, if you do leave me I have no bones after all..lol You know everything about me better than my parents know me. You are my world.. you're perfect for me even thought you're not in others. I love the way you are, be yourself and don't simply change it. Trust me, you are better than you thought :) I love you ♥xx

Relationships are not only about finding a right person, it's being a right person too :)

♥

YOU FOUND ME :)

DISTANCE? Nah I know you will come back soon right? In April I think :) But don't April Fool me please == And ofcause I miss you so much bro :) And yeah my tears came out yesterday night when the FM broadcast the song 'California King Bed' and 'A Thousand Years'.. Yeah you know right? Sometimes, it's not the song that makes you emotional, it's the people and things that come to your mind when you hear it :) So yeah, those song did make me cry my heart out..

Distance is just a space in between, it's only as far apart as our hearts will let it :) Sometimes imagination will take me everywhere I want.. Every night before I go to sleep I think about you, us and how much I love you ♥ Do not give up, the beginning is always the hardest right? Love is about TRUST! A relationship without trust is the relationship without love :) Just so you know the little things you do mean a lot to me.. TO ME, you are already perfect :) Maybe this love is difficult, but it's real.. no one can mess with it :P

You and Me won't be unhappy :) Trust me I won't find another before you dumped me haha yeah right I can't imagine life without you. I feel you in my bones :) Don't listen to the world, they say we're never gonna make it.. Trust me things will get better than we thought :) Hmm yeah I miss you so damn much and DON'T EVER BEND DOWN TO TAKE THE SOUP! XD Seriously I don't want you turn to be GAY, if you do then I will turn to be LESBIAN :) TEEHEE lol

Sometime you can hate everything around you :) ..

♥

END 2011 :$

Well yeah this is the last post of the year 2011 for me and I try to write something in my blog but I don't know want to write about what now, no inspiration == Hmm yeah reopen school is exactly in few more day and I can't wait about it :) I miss my friends so much and the school uniform and I really miss to be a student again. Yeah I know you guys will think that I'm insane but you know what, you will be regret after leave the school :P haha. AND YEAH! I wish that I can go into a class that I wish for, Graphic Design.. I think I'm right, right? lol haha

Hey, today Friday (30 Dec 2011). He's leaving to Beijing till next year of 6 Jan 2012. After that 15 Jan 2012 is my 16th BIRTHDAY! coooool~ ★.★ haha and and and after that 30 Jan 2012 he's leaving again but not really..coming back in time - to New Zealand :) It's ok for me and him and we can have a chance to try long distance love(?) I think.. lame haha :P Seriously we both are strong enough and trust each other enough but sometimes we will feel insecure too but after that we will be feel secure again :) Maybe is our conversation help us to prove it? haha No lies in our relationship. NEVER EVER :)

*In this 2months of holidays, I'm seriously in love in a cartoon called 'Barbie' haha yeah it's ridiculous =-=

Honey, I'm always in your heart and ready to love you and to be loved by :) And yeah, as my friend said: 'You're already in my future :)'. Baby, don't try to overthinking again and stop blaming yourself. I love the real Calvin that always so cute and funny. And I love your smile babe, it's cute :) I love you when you say 'mhmmm' and 'hmph', it's just fucking cute!!! HAHAHAHA! I know you hate me when I say you're cute huh but you're just cute :P Anyway I love the way you are babe :)xx

Ohya, I already please God to keep you safe. MORE SAFE! takecare. xx ♥

Dear God, I wanna take a minute, not to ask for anything from you. But simply to say Thank You for all I have :) Thanks you.

Next Life :)

Happy 3months baby ♥

OMG, I love my mustache xD

Hmm sorry for the late post. I'M SO SORRY! :(

Today is Hug's Valentine Day! I really wanna to hug you but can't /.\

Hmm seriously I really excited for next year, my birthday and the concert :P

And I ♥ this year Christmas, feel so excited without any reason

I want you to know something, but I'm not sure how to tell you

So I will let the first three words of this sentence tell you for me :))

You cares me..

Yeah yesterday I felt that you really care about me haha

Thanks for everything hun, you're awesome too :D

And yeah.. sorry that there has been times where I keep crying and I will stay strong enough

But seriously I just cry for nothing -..-

Sometimes I wish I could just fast forward time just to see if in the end its all worth it :)

There's so much memories that's so stupid and awkward for me

And feel like killing you sometimes /.\hahaha

Hmm and yeah.. we difficult to contact each other but we're more conjugal love than others :)heehee

Life isn't easy, but with you by my side everything is much easier and better ♥

Yeah same shit bro, I love you

I don't care about your past, all I want to know is if there's a place for me in your future :)blek

You make me speechless again and again :P

psst, And play video games together sometime yeah xD

GOD PLEASE ..

My wishes while 11:11 everyday - God, please keep him safe.. MORE SAFE! :(

He's 16years old now, looks mature merely the brain still so childish

He's sporty and talkative, can't stay quiet for a moment

He love to tease people, this is his expertise
But I'm admit that he's so cute sometimes.. I mean every time haha

Merely he's stupid enough to hurt himself - -

I hate him it because he doesn't care enough himself too

Argh... but I love him the most lol..

Seriously, when I saw the photo that your leg get injured

I feel like wanna to slap right to your FACE calvin - -

Stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid !!

To be honest, I dreamt of him every single night with different dreams

yeah that's impossible but that's the truth :)

I hate when I ready to remember it back and try to tell him about my dreams

I fucking forgotten what's that - - ishh

But the most awful dreams is that zombies dreams

He died on it, WTH?!

And I was like I don't wanna he died in front of me and I need to use the gun to shoot right through his head it because he's a zombie.. and of cause scared he will bite me - -

But do you think I will shoot him? Shoot the one I love the most? Shot the one I care the most?

Nahh, just ignore that haha

Anyway, I love you baby ♥ xx

Never let one bad chapter in the book of life mess up the whole story.

YOU MAKE MY DAY :)

Happy 2 months baby ♥

' Iloveyou, not only for what you are but for what I am when I am with you '

' Its not about who spend the most time with, its about who you had the best memories with ' :)

Honey I love you with all my heart and soul.

I miss your eyes, I miss your lips

I miss your voice, I miss your whisper

I miss your cuddle, I miss your body temperature

I miss your everything.. I miss YOU :)

I am so glad that you are here, it helps me realize how beautiful my world is

When you hugged me, I never want to let go

When you kissed me, I never want it to stop

I love you, that's the reason I did all these stupid things.

I speechless to my blog.

It because loving you is without any stupid useless reason

Nobody's perfect, you just YOU ♥

I love the way you are :)

...

You apologized and I said I'm fine.

But that doesn't mean my heart is magically fixed..

Make our story last forever :)

Forever and Always ♥

WITH YOU..

yeah, I always thought that I'm cuddling you..so?

IMISSYOU ..

*chinese for this part..pardon? :P

其实.. 我真的不知道要说些什么

我知道现在这个时候各有各的忙，各有各的安排

我真的知道他很忙，他也和我说对不起了

但是.. 我为什么还是感到伤心?

37天了，这几天最笨得还是我

爱乱想，爱装emo，找他又怕他说我烦

每次都给他骂我想太多

heehee, 我就是爱乱想不可以? :P

我没事，这是事实也是谎言

他很幼稚，我也很幼稚，所以我俩都成熟不起来

我们答应了彼此说，这个特征一定要维持下去 哈哈

说真的，恋爱着的少女都是这样的吗?

越爱越开心，过了就越爱越伤心，然后就越爱越疑心，最后就越爱越安心..?

什么嘛，乱七八糟的 @@

我只需要平平淡淡的幸福存在着，这样就真得足够了 :)

我爱他，他爱我

就这样彼此爱着彼此，直到永远

如果上帝在创造我们的爱情故事的话

那结局一定是永远。

我不相信天长地久，我只珍惜曾经拥有

你说你会娶我回家，我说我会嫁去你家

我的姓想和你一样，你愿意让它一样吗

我很呆，我很迟钝，我很不知情，可能还会踏错一步

你愿意继续留在这么笨的我的身边守护着我吗?

The fact is, I will always right beside you and love you with my heart

Loving you is the amazing thing in the world that I never had :)

I love you baby ♥

Sometime I just think that I can't always be a SUPERWOMEN :)

HMM..

Seriously, I just can hope right now..

sorry, I just said I hate you but I just 'said' it, it's no real

I just wanna to say sorry to you

I'm sorry, sorry for everything

I know I'm too free for writing all these bullshit thing in here

But I just scare to tell you this kind of things and I don't know how to express my feelings

I'm sorry, I'm really really sorry

That's all I can say and do now ...

Oh yeah, next Sunday 1utama with them

And maybe next week or next next week overnight at Natasha's house :P

My dear Bailey and Joanne, can you just out next Sunday?lol haha

Feeling don't wanna to stay at home, it because when I'm alone at house, I will think too much about the stupidest things

I try to avoid it, but just can't without my friends :)heehee

My best friends and HIM are important to me so don't come and mess with me slut

I swear you will lose - -

I FEEL SO SCARE NOW..
REALLY SCARE.. .. ..

YOU'RE SPECIAL :)

Happy first month baby ♥

Seriously, I always thought that we already together for 1 or 2 years

I know you guys will say: You think too much jor la, Alice

LOL, but it because I love him so I will think about that.. haha

I Love You baby :) xx

I know my mind still so childish, I know I'm so ugly and I know that I'm not really suit you

but did you willing to be with me after you know everything about me?

I love just the way you are :)

I need you by my side seriously..

Sometime I feel you are too stupid, haha

It because you will daydreaming with me, you will say sorry to me no matter that isn't your fault

You are a normal boy but you can make me feel so special

You will keep telling me your muscle was so pain after playing sport

You will play with the kids with the stupid idiot big smile which will make my heartbeat jump so fast and like to tease people who make fun of you..haha

Stupid bi, will you accepted me after you knowing my everything?

Will you hate me after I do these all kind of stupid thing?

Will you more in love with me after I already crazy fall in love with you?

Will you be my forever?

I know we can't see our future now but I had a premonition the you are my future

Hope this premonition will come true :)

Forever & Always baby ♥ :)

More busy after PMR :)

Tomorrow still need to go to school for returning all the text books..#gosh

But after tomorrow is Friday, Saturday, Sunday and Monday. NO SCHOOL FOR ME

After Monday, I will consider about wanna to go for school a not :P

Arranging the days going out with my stupid baby, ANW and other friends

Feel like wanna to meet my primary school friends :)

My freedom finally started, all I need to do in this 3 month holidays is:

'Buy clothes, buy shoes, buy bags, buy books, buy everything and singK :)

Gosh gosh gosh, I just can't wait about it ♥

After the PMR, need to hurry something too #shit, I will so busy for it

Need to do 2 important things on this few day, but need to take some time to done it too

HURRY HURRY HURRY!! ALICE, I know you can done it! ><

Shit, forgotten to buy the materials T_T

Hope they will surprise for it after I give them :)

I smile because of you calvin ♥

He's BACK :)

Stay with me, baby stay with me

Tonight don't leave me alone ♥

He's back :)

That's the reason why I should happy but why still feel a little bit sad?

Not really understand about myself seriously

I know I shouldn't being emo for today but I just can't control myself

Is it feelings between us seems to alienate a lot? Yeah, I know I think to much

Slap me please? -..-

LOL, you guys can ignore me and this post..

Yeah, I need to be happy.. NO is MUST TO BE HAPPY FOR IT :)

Hey baby, welcome back to Malaysia ♥

You know what? Today is a god damn good day to me

It because I already over my PMR and you already came back from New Zealand and it's my parents Wedding Anniversary Day :)

I miss you damn much and I admit it I think a lot of bullshit things this couple days

I know my friends is kidding with me but I will take it serious sometime

Sometime I'm hurt in some bullshit from friends

They just don't know, don't forget I'm a professional actress :)

Sometime I just tired about waiting and doing nothing

I know I shouldn't write these kind of stupid things today

but I just wanna to write my feelings in my blog

That's my only way to vent..

I will try to control myself

and you can ignore my stupid god damn feelings, just don't care about it

I'm fine, the word guys love to hear :)

I miss you not just today..

I need to be cuddle :)

. . . sorry ♥

Hello, my love :)

Hey baby

Happy 16th Birthday :)

I felt so sorry it because I'm not the first one who wish you

But I will be the last one who wishing you :P

When we first met

I had no idea you would be so important to me.

You know what?

I will re-read our conversation a million times

because its made me smile :)

because everything you do and words you say

you know that it all takes my breath away ♥

And I don't trust easily

So when I tell you that 'I trust you'

please don't make me regret it :)

I didn't feel regret from beginning till now

This is the fact.

I'm glad to had known you

I smile and laugh every single day

I thinking of you every single day

I need you by my side every single day

I wish that you were here every single day ♥

Hugs were invented to let people know you love them without having to say anything.

And I love to hug and be hug

I need a cuddler and are you willing to be my cuddler? :P

You can make me smile

You can make me laugh

You can make me happy

You can make me believe

You can make me serious

You can make me feel like a amazing girl in this world ♥

You make me feel so special :)

I like being with you a lot and its worth.

Can you do me a favor? STAY ♥

Yeah, I'm a GIRL but I'm of those girls who act like a GUY SOMETIMES :)

wulala ♥

wulala ♥

Hey honey, you know what?

I using your name to searching this photo: Memories Last Forever :) lol

13 september 2011

LOL, already promise myself that no love before PMR

but what happen now?

I'm in the relationship with this clumsy baby name CALVIN TAN.

*lalala whatever lalala its doesn't matter lalala oh well?

who call he's amazing? he's cute? he's everything? :P

Make a good choice and you will have a nice started and a beautiful touching ending ♥

He told me: Things changing. Like from a dead tree to a beautiful rose.

Like what you have done to me, turning me from a normal boy to a special one :)

LOL, from start till the end you're always my special one

and I will cherish it as well, it because you're different for me and everything

You're the the only one I love with baby

Seriously, need you by my side :)

You're the one who make me laugh every single night

You're the one who make me wanna to cherish it the most

You're the one who I want a long hug with you

You're the one I need it the most when I'm happy, sad or feel bored

And you're the one who I want to spend it in my lifetime

I LOVE YOU, BABY ♥

LATE POST :(

Happy Bithday to my cute little BABY WOON! Bailey Woon

Sorry cause late to write this pretty post to you. XD

Don't touch till cry after saw this post arrrrrrr :P

Okay, is time to start my speech now ...

Hey smurf ♥

Hahahahaha, Happy ENDING Birthday again! XD

Baby baby want you want you girl , oh oh oh oh yeah~ BEAST Because Of You.

I gonna to say some stpid idiot smurf things right now, READY? :P

;Ehem' ...Bailey?

You know what. I notice you for long time ago

Already got 2years more I think ...

Erm, yeah you know that right

I really love you, I can't just leave without you

We meet each other, we know each other in this tiny little world

WOAH! Is it a fate or what?

You will make me more sad when I was happy

You will make me more sad when I wasn't happy too

'THANKS' alot? xD

You will comfort me when everything goes wrong

You will accompany me when I'm alone

You will make me feel right when I'm thinking negative

You will make it right when I make it wrong

You will care me when I'm with you

You will always for my sake when I bicker with you

You will always tell me should be careful when I have a boyfriend

ALL IN ALL, you're the best friend that I never had

Seriously, I really felt so god damn sorry to you

It because ...Yeah, you know it right ...?

Nothing special, nothing perfect, nothing surprise, nothing funny, nothing touching, nothing...

Argh, SORRY DUDE! ><

You can hate me if you like? I doesn't care ...I think? T____T

Sorry for late celebrate your birthday

Sorry for just a normal celebration

Sorry for EVERYTHING! :(

Although this post wasn't that long

But this is my TRUE FEELINGS to you, hope you can understand what I trying to convey :)

Natasha Tks

; YOU also my best friend that I never had in this world :)

HEY ANW BEAUTY,

Hope our friendship will never separate ♥

Hey guys, you know what?

That kind of feelings come to me AGIAN

Why I can't just avoid it?

TRULY FALL IN LOVE WITH IT? #shitz

He just fine for me ♥